I thought it would be nice to do a quick follow-up.
So where was I? Quick recap: Woke up, no hearing in R Ear, no balance. Several doctors and audiologist visits and a month later, still no hearing but balance is somewhat better as long as my eyes are open! So the odds are high that this is a permanent situation, which means, hi-fi doesn’t sound good anymore because my hearing is now extremely low-fi and not something that’s nice to listen to. The other side of audio paradise, so to speak.
But all is not lost. Far from it. I realised something very early and that is, how this episode makes me feel is entirely based on how I choose to react. I can be sad, angry and miserable and pine everyday for what I’m missing. How would that make me feel? How would it make you feel? Would it change anything? Or, I can accept that what has happened has happened, that my previous life and a lot of its pleasures are no more, and set about building something else that’s equally pleasurable. Put together a plan and put my time and effort into implementing it. How would that make me feel? You? It’s taken me 70 years to see that clearly. How I feel is up to how I choose to react.
Shortly after this happened, I felt that the best way to find those alternatives was to go over my life in my memory and pick out the events and things that gave me the most pleasure. While thinking about this, I suddenly realised that I was on an 17-18 year cycle of change. At 18 I left the UK for South Africa. At 36 I left South Africa for Germany. At 54 I left Germany for the UK and at 70 I lost my hearing and am now changing my life again. So far I’ve enjoyed each phase, so its up to me to make the next one fun.
So I’ve fully accepted what‘s happened and now I‘m working full speed on the transformation.
I need to sell my beloved hi-fi system. Tear it apart and sell it. What an incredible waste for such a highly sorted and well matched system. Oh well! So instead of hating doing the adverts I got out my camera gear, charged all its batteries and ordered a light ‘cabinet’ so I don't have the sweat backgrounds and lighting. Turns out Im really enjoying the photography, just like I used to.
I needed to sell my car, a BMW X4M because it was simply too loud and too wild for my new situation. Im going to morph the car and hi-fi into a camper van, set it up with a satellite ISP and and a good network and Im going to start a blog, because the other thing I love to do is write (if you hadn’t noticed). Happily my wife is into a touring camper just as much as me, so another nice thing for us to do together.
So, shitty situation to warrant the change, but I‘m welcoming the change with open arms and in the words of Nina Simone, “I’m feelin‘ good”. You’ll see my ads start appearing soon. If you want to contribute to my camper, that will be your chance