My apologies!

[Johnny Vinyl]

Hi everyone!

I won't be going into too much detail as to why I've been absent as of late and have not responded to PM's and emails. I just can't at the moment.

In a nutshell....I've been struggling with numerous panic/anxiety attacks and I can't seem to face the world with much strength. While I continue my volunteer efforts elsewhere, my heart is not in it so I stick to the mundane and uninteresting. Real discussions scare me and I don't have the confidence to participate. I am also embarrassed to be poor and to accept the good intentions of those who have tried to help me. I know that is crazy talk,but that is how crazy people think. All of you have been nothing short of being kind and have always accepted me, and I thank you.

I have lost a lot of things in my life, for which I take full responsibility, but the loss of my confidence and the ineptness I feel as a human being has been overwhelmingly debilitating. I feel a lot anger right now and I need to get past that stage.

I'm sorry if I rambled a bit here, but I'm not exactly the person I once really liked and had confidence in. I hate feeling this way, but it is what is for now.

Please be well and I hope to join regularly at some point down the road.

My very best wishes to you all!

 

[Steve williams]

John

It's ways good to see you here. Hang in there buddy. Remember the mantra "life is good"

 

[NorthStar]

---If you have a good heart John (and you do), you're already on your way. :b

 

[flez007]

John - a pause in ones life is always a great way to verify where we are and where we want to head next, take a deep breath an keep moving to where your heart feels its the right path. Beleive in you bro!

 

[GaryProtein]

We're wishing you the best for a speedy recovery!

 

[FrantzM]

Feel for you John .. Come back to us you have real friends here.. We all are rooting/praying for you.. Come back soon .. There is so much music to discover .. Be well my friend...

 

[LL21]

Feel for you John .. Come back to us you have real friends here.. We all are rooting/praying for you.. Come back soon .. There is so much music to discover .. Be well my friend...

+1

 

[joeinid]

John,

Please feel better. We are here for you. Do what you need to do, our prayers are with you.

 

[Mike]

John,

Feel better soon, else I'll send Ronaldo to visit you!

Mike

 

[mep]

John-We all care about you bro. I was wondering where you have been and why you haven’t been posting. I always thought of you as a well-grounded person who was surrounded by good friends and family. I always enjoyed your posts and liked your observations about recordings. You need to think about all of the good things in your life and the people who care about you and get back to who you really are.

 

[Ron Party]

Hi John. Joining in on the sentiments of others who posted before me, I thought I'd also send to you a, well, sort of a music video best wishes to you with one of your favorite bands:

 

[joeinid]

Ron,

Thanks for posting that video. What a great concert. I would have loved to have been there. One of my favs as well. Good luck John. For me, music heals. I hope for you as well.

 

[RBFC]

Your presence has been missed, John. Good to see you back!

Lee

 

[JackD201]

Hang in there buddy, you're not alone.

 

[amirm]

As others have expressed, it is great to see you face the situation and post about it here. I wish it was an audio problems so that I could say something useful on how to resolve it . One of my ex bosses had a sign on his office wall that said, "worry is an abuse of imagination!" Whenever I get down, I think of that and it gets me through it better. It is possible to get some amount of self control over the situation although it is clearly very difficult at times.

 

[JackD201]

When I was a neophyte Congressman 10 years ago, I had quite a few anxiety attacks. I didn't want other people to know but my Dad spotted it. He took me on a short trip to chill and on that trip, I met a guy at a Taoist temple which was part of the tour, who saw through my (I suspect feeble defenses). He looked at me thoughtfully and said, "Solve one problem a day." then he turned away and started talking to the others in our party. It was a one sentence, conversation.

I never got his name and never got to thank him. I wish I could. I don't even know if he was a monk there or anything. He was dressed in street clothes. I don't recall ever having any more anxiety attacks since I took that advice from a perfect stranger. In hindsight, I think it was a turning point for me. Since that day, I attacked every problem like I would a puzzle instead of as a life and death proposition which was my mentality in sports. It might work for you John, just one problem a day, just one. You'll never run out of them, but you might never feel like you were drowning, as I did. Cheer up.

 

[DaveyF]

John, so sorry to hear of your predicament. Please consider this, you sent me several CD's last year, which BTW I am vey much enjoying, and you refused anything in return. In my books, you're a great guy, so don't feel so down. Money isn't what life is all about, it's our deeds and actions that make us wealthy and in my mind, you Sir are a wealthy man. So like Jack said, please Cheer up.

 

[jkeny]

John, I believe you can see from the replies that you are very welcome here which is a good place to start from. By sharing your thoughts & feelings with others here (or elsewhere) perhaps some help & healing might begin?

 

[Gregadd]

Panic attacks are real. They are not a sign of weaknesss. It is not your fault to be ill. Don't try to push through Seek professional help. God is your friend.
Greg