If I go back some 10 years with a different main system my focus and engagement Al was very different to the pattern of my focus now. Not saying anything about what others do because these can be such abstract distinctions in themselves but on reflection (this is just my take on it) I went through a time where I was constantly analysing everything about my setup and using music as a way of appreciating the sound quality of my gear. I hit a realisation that my choice of music was being completely shaped by this and I needed to get back more to where it all started for me, the fascination and flow and wonder at great music and for the musicians that make the most engaging forms of it.
I feel what has really accelerated that mode of listening back into the totality of the music as the core experience for me is that instead of thinking most often about the sounds my gear recreates that I’m thinking more about the shape of the music itself, the shape the conductor is making of the orchestration or the players are making at any points and then how they shape their performances in total or the relationship of the playing of a featured soloist to the accompaniment or with vocalists and how the whole of the performance is shaped and also where that has taken (changed) me in listening.
I hope it’s not too wobbly a distinction and it only reflects my personal take on it. I appreciate the quality of the sounds that the system can make but now I’m always bringing it back to how that relates to the performance rather than primarily equating with how my system makes it possible for me to hear it. It’s that summative step back to the start of how it began for me and focusses on the music the players make rather than listening to the sounds my system is able to convey. This becomes the way of increasing my core connection to the big picture of music.
The moments of sounds and fragments are fleeting. But in a great performance of great music in a system that gets the holistic balance right (to me) it makes letting go of any of the moments in focus on the parts to merge back into the flow of just following the whole and the way that then folds. I figure it is about some appropriate balance between the parts and the whole by recognising the interrelating parts but without the parts dominating the whole. I suppose that’s a point where the whole then is indeed greater than the sum of the parts.
I’ve probably not got the point captured exactly (perhaps at all) but the flow and the totality of the shape of the music and my (inter) relationship with it and the spirit of the music itself become the centre of the listening experience. My fleeting attention to the parts is following the interrelated threads of the music and how in great performance (of great music) these dialogues stay connected and then fold back into the whole of the music again. This whole experience then creates an appreciation of a totality that has shape, nature and meaning.
That way the musical whole has the greatest gravity in the experience and by repeatedly looking for this my expectation has shifted back to defaulting to the core of the music. The parts (the separate sounds) are fabulous but fleeting, they are peripherals and ephemerals that build to the whole.
I feel that shifting back to just finding the best performances as my primary everyday focus it has been more like a pole star that has navigated me back to my original balance. That always looking to the totality of music itself leaves no time for questions or system disbelief. The system is flawed but it’s not central (it’s a peripheral) but the totality of the music is central and real and at its best flawless. Taking my regular focus away from my system and back again to the experience of music is the best tweak that I’ve made to my listening in many (many
) years.